Thursday, May 6, 2010

Time for a Change

My weight has been an issue as long as I can remember.  By "issue" I mean there were times when I was way too thin - times when I was way too heavy - and probably even times when I was just right (but too obsessed to realize it).  Regardless of which end of the weight spectrum I fell on, however, one thing was always consistent - my weight has always consumed my life.

After the birth of my children I made a conscious decision to changes this.  I vowed that I would not allow my girls to go through what I have.  I swore I'd bring them up with a healthy body image.  I promised would teach them to love themselves the way that God made them.

And while I think I've done a fair job (so far) in teaching my girls to love themselves, somewhere along the way I seemed to have forgotten about loving myself.  So now, after decades of extreme dieting and non-dieting - years of attempting not to allow my weight take over my life I've somehow managed to do just that.  I'm 37 years old with a fabulous life full of friends, family, and many wonderful blessings, yet I'm unhappy, uncomfortable and unable to wear all the cute clothes I love so much.  I'm the heaviest I've ever been.  It's time for a change


  1. What have you been doing inside my head?! I've been having the same thoughts for the last 6 months. How can I appear so happy and confident to the rest of the world and be so self-conscious and unhappy on the inside. We can be cross-country soul-sisters!

  2. Right there with you. Even with 20 years gone by, you can't change the similarities! I am happy to read along through your journey and just know I have been there, am there and will be there doing just the same things. It is always more fun to travel with a friend.

  3. How awesome to have two people whom I love and admire very much (in so many ways) with me on this journey! Please never forget what incredible - and beautiful - women you are!